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I guess I've been whining too much, because when I said last night that I'm lazy, Mom said, "You're young, you're fit..."

I'm not really looking forward to my birthday as much as I should be. I just feel so depressed, like it's just one more year off my life. I'm in a rut. I can't do much in karate class because of the bone graft in my mouth, I have no job because very little seems to grab me. Although I might apply at Fortino's or the library.

Basically, I have too much time on my hands. If I take art lessons, I'll have to either take lessons at the Dundas Vally School of Art, which is too far away, or the art gallery, which is downtown. If I take acting classes at one of the theatres, I might wind up in the same classes as Erica, which might turn out to be catastrophic on my part.

Mom says that I should just let stuff go. But I can't. I guess I'm still trying to understand why Erica's being like this.

I watched disc one of the Crossroads DVD. I love it. Although I thought that John Mayer made a guitar face that made him look like he wanted to eat his guitar. That, and he was too close to the mic. I think his lips were against it! DON'T KISS THE MIC, MAN!!!! :)

This is ridiculous.

I'm so mad at Erica. I wanted to go shopping with just her and Holly, and she pretty much extended the invitation to some of her friends. Even worse, she didn't use the 'Bcc' tool in her e-mail invitation, so her friends now have my e-mail. Nice, huh?

But here's the best part - I told her that I can't commit to the dates she suggested, the 26th and 27th, because my dad works on the 26th and his holidays start on the 27th, so we might be out of the city. Who knows - we might even visit my sister during his holidays. So she says I could take the bus to the mall on the 26th. I told her I wasn't comfortable with that - after all, I've never taken the bus anywhere. She says, "Yes? No? Bus?" I think I told her that I couldn't commit to those dates once more, or something like that, she she said "Mmmhmm."

Does she think I'm just gonna accommodate her social life and put everything else on hold? It doesn't work like that. I think she's got a lot of nerve to do this - extend the invitation, say that I could bus down to the mall...

This is driving me nuts. First she was flip-flopping on whether or not she could make it to the Festival of Friends, and now she's pulling this stunt. I've tried. The gods know I've tried. I would send her an e-mail and not hear back from her. I thought she was a best friend, not a complete... well, you get the idea.

Here's what's new.

Yesterday, Erica commented on one of my photos of Mouse that I put up on Facebook. And yet she couldn't take the time to e-mail me. Huh.

Also yesterday, Mom was watching some movie, and I asked her what it was. She told me it was a goofy movie. So I said, "If no one's watching it, shall I look for something else?", and she replied, "I never said I wasn't watching it." So I ate my bread upstairs, in the spare room.

I heard some awesome music last night in the spare room. After my bread, I brought up my knitting and listened to the Galaxie music channels. All it is is a black screen with the song info in white text, moving slowly so that it doesn't burn out one particular part of the screen. I was often switching Galaxie channels when there was a song I wasn't keen on. I heard a Jethro Tull song on Galaxie GoldRock, and Tutti Fruitti on Rock n' Roll. I think I even heard some decent songs on Galaxie Rock, which usually has new rock thrown in. But the other night I did hear Viva la Vida by Coldplay on Galaxie Rock, which was awesome, and Hot Patootie by Meatloaf (from Rocky Horror, as seen in the post below this one) on GoldRock.

I'm up this early?!

It is 7:15 AM. I'm normally not up this early. I usually get out of bed before 10:00 (Mom's rule). Anyway, I thought I might fill you in on what has happened recently.

I forgot to mention that on Saturday I picked up my CDs from the library. I've been listening to a couple of tracks off of Bob Dylan's Highway 61 Revisited, but I have not yet put in the soundtrack from The Song Remains The Same. I was tired last night - I think it was partly due to the weather. I also had a headache, and for a bit I had aching wrists (probably from too much knitting), and then aching ankles. Now my ankles are aching again. Yay.

At the library, my dad found a DVD entitled, EastEnders: The Slaters in Detention, and got it out for Mom.. It was really funny, with serious bits mixed in. I don't watch EastEnders as often as Mom does, but I like to watch it when there's an interesting story going on. I'm more of a Coronation Street nut, though. That reminds me... it's not on during the Olympics, and I don't think they're replaying in on Sunday mornings because of said Olympics. I'll have to check CBC's website to see if they've got the episodes online.

I chatted with Erica on MSN (okay, it's Windows Live Messenger now, but you get the idea) last night. She said that since the Festival of Friends didn't work out, would I like to go to the Peach Festival? She didn't know when it was, though, and when I asked her if she remembered what weekend it is, she said, "No. I already stated that." I didn't ask her why she couldn't come to the Festival of Friends (I didn't think to, and it would have been rude of me to ask), but she didn't even apologize. Nice, huh?

I'm not sure if I should knit a Christmas present for her. I intend to make washcloths for Holly, but if Erica's going to be like this, does she deserve a knitted gift?

I hope Max is home for Christmas. I can't remember when he's supposed to be coming back. Max, in case you don't know, used to go to my youth group. He's quite cute. He went away for a while and I can't remember when he went or when he's supposed to be back. I think he'll be home by December, though. If he is, maybe I'll make him a scarf or something... Or a hat.

Post #101!

It's hard to believe that my last post was #100!

I'm annoyed for two reasons. First, the judges on America's Got Talent sent David home! He doesn't even qualify for the wild card spot! :( I'm still not sure who I'll vote for for the wild card spot, because I like Victoria the contortionist, and Kyle, and the other fella... I've lost his name, but he's the man who had a car accident and wasn't able to sing for 11 years.

My second reason for being annoyed is a simple, five-letter name: Erica. First we were trying to get together on Tuesday, but I thought my dad was going to work overtime so I told her and Holly that Tuesday wasn't a good day. Erica wanted to know why we couldn't take the bus. So, later on in a string of e-mails, she suggests Saturday. So I suggest the Festival of Friends, which is a late summer festival where craftspeople sell jewelry, clothing and other great stuff - sometimes musical intruments like pan flutes and ocarinas. But Erica wanted to do both - go shopping AND go to the festival. Then she tells me later that Saturday isn't a good day for her.

I'm not mad at Holly. She wanted to go, but she's so busy this weekend, so I'm not sure if she can come with my parents and I. I totally understand if she can't come, because she's preparing for university.

I think that Erica just wants to hang out with her boyfriend and her new friends that she most likely met through her boyfriend. Whatever the reason, she's being a prat about this planning. At least when Holly hasn't replied to an e-mail in a while, she apologizes. Erica just doesn't seem to bother.